Nikola
Tesla said everything is energy and so has every avatar since the
beginning of time. We are energy beings and every exchange we have in
this life and the next is an exchange of energy or between energies.
My
single resolution is to live authentically. In that way, I will
survive. At my age, many things have drained me of energy and I am
intimately familiar with them. I thought I might tell you a little
about them.
The
book titles all tout protection against psychic attack, psychic
vampires or this or that diet that is going to fix your brain fog,
exhaustion, aches and pains and all else that is making your life a
misery. They aren't going to fix a darned thing because although
those things might be kicking around you, they are not what is wrong.
If there wasn't an underlying problem, these things could not touch
you. They would be quivering in the corner with their own kind.
The
underlying problem is your aura, that energetic shield that protects
you, is wide open and full of little holes. There are ways to
reinforce that shield but have you stopped to think what might open
it up and allow the creepy crawly things in?
Think
for a moment about how you reinforce the energy shield. You do a
guided visualization that builds a nice wall of some kind and plugs
the holes or rather, covers them over. What happens every day when
you try to be someone you aren't? You are building a new bubble
around yourself with what you happen to know is a facade. You begin
to place all your energy into building the facade and no energy into
maintaining your real self. What do you think is going to happen?
The outside looks great but the inside is decaying and rotting.
By
living authentically, you first have to know the real you and not be
afraid to be that person. Then you have to be careful to align
yourself and your actions with that real self. You must remember that
you have an unconscious mind that pretty much has the emotional age
of a 4 year old. It sees things in black and white with no shades of
gray and the moment you go against its grain, it smacks back. If you
declare yourself in solidarity with working man and then show up
every week in the great market that you know screws its employees so
badly in salary and working conditions that they have to get food
stamps to survive, your authenticity just went down the toilet. Money
is not a concept your energetic self understands like you do and
somewhere in the back of your mind, you know that you can do without
less to stay out of those places. Your energetic self sees you
exchanging money energy with a place that is bad for people and thus
you must be bad, too, or something is wrong and it will work on
getting you away from this place.
If you
proclaim every person is beautiful and has value and then hang around
with people who make fun of others and devalue them, your
authenticity just took a huge hit. I had a simple rule when working,
I didn't participate in “bitch fests” about my employer, even
when I worked for a brief time at Walmart. The thing that puts the
food on my table is not the thing I am going to be complaining about.
I will do my job to the best of my ability no matter how much I hate
the work because it is paying me and I guarantee, I will be looking
for the door to get out as fast as possible. In my dotage here, I
would know not to apply for work there. But when I was there, I was
the best, most authentic employee on the floor, aside from the head
games I enjoyed playing with security. Then again, that is the
authentic me.
The
only way your energetic self has to get you out of non-authentic
situations is energetic. You have heard people say they were in these
situations and got really sick or had an accident and that propelled
them into their authentic life. The energetic self deals in energy
and getting whacked with a moving object or sick through a loss of
energetic protection in an area of the body is how the authentic self
will move you if the hints don't work.
What
hints should you be looking out for? You have a brain. You know when
you are doing things that are at odds with your authentic self. If
you have been at this for a number of years, you may have lost track
of your authenticity. It maybe time to ask who you are and what you
are. If you are truly perplexed then here are a few signs. You are
alone. People have a sense of when someone is playing a fake part and
they avoid relationships with them. You usually have no idea what is
wrong, but people drift in and out of your life at high speed. No
matter how good a part you play, if your energy doesn't match the
person you are attracting with the nice facade, is going to leave and
their answer is going to be, “it just didn't feel right”. Let's
hope you never attract someone as fake and lost as you are. Free
floating anxiety is a beginning symptom. You don't know what is wrong
but you know something is wrong. This symptom grows into full fledged
panic attacks. A panic attack is your authentic self trying to escape
the fake self you have built and you feel like you are dying because
the authentic self is trying to get rid of the fake one.
Unaccountable weight gain is the authentic self trying to build a
nice buffer between itself and the facade that is rubbing it the
wrong way. You are weak, sick and ache all over and the doctors can
find nothing wrong and nothing helps. Trust me, if you are truly in
pain, pain killers work. If they don't, I not saying you aren't in
pain but the pain may have an energetic rather than a physical
source. Either one hurts like the dickens, but the pain from an
energetic source can't be fixed with a physical remedy because it
isn't physical. That is why drugs and alcohol do not solve any of
your problems.
When
you no longer have a score sheet as to who owes who what, when you
stay away places and things you know are not energetically good for
everyone, and when you no longer need hours to get ready for the role
you are about play by stepping outside, you are authentic. You stop
worrying about what others think and start becoming yourself. If they
like it, it is going to be wonderful. If they don't, no loss, you
just didn't belong with them. Fish do not try to live on land and
minnows stay away from sharks. People leaving is good because being
in fake relationships is going to wear you out. Eventually, the real
psychic vampire will be the fake self you have created and
maintaining it will drain you of all energy, happiness and health.
Many
years ago, I started on this path because of a sign in a second hand
tire shop. It basically said, everyone got the same price because it
was just too much work to lie and keep track of who gets what. The
owner said he had better things to do that he enjoyed more. I bought
tires there until he closed the store and retired.
If you
aren't enjoying your life, it may be because you are spending too
much time on the things you don't enjoy, like keeping up that fake
persona. So next time you are tempted to make changes and lie to be
part of the in-crowd, you really should be asking: the in with what
crowd. When you find yourself about to hand over your money which is
a result of your energetic efforts in this world, you need to ask if
you agree with what the place you are in is doing to people and what
it represents. All these things are exchanges of energy and if the
exchange isn't equal and balanced, you are giving more than you are
getting no matter how much you think your are saving. Eventually it
will take its toll.
Now, I
know I am psychic and I know I am more “sensitive” but that just
means, I see and feel more. It isn't a bad thing or a weak thing. To
put it bluntly, I am going to survive in the wild because I do see
and feel more and it keeps me safe. So let me describe my last trip
to the big W. I normally would go no further into the store than the
garden department because rescuing the poor plants sort of balanced
out the horrible company they are and anyway, I knew they were losing
money on the plants I was grabbing off the bargain table. Then one
night I needed a yogurt maker and they had the ONLY one. I ordered
and paid for it and all I had to do was pick it up. Trust me when I
say they were at their usual level of efficiency. Finally I got my
paid for package and headed for the door as the garden department was
now closed (remember what I said about usual level of efficiency, I
started with plenty of time to escape). I got to the front of the
store and felt panic sliding up my spine. I looked at the people and
like Don Juan, I saw energetic blobs and I must have looked like a
fresh killed steak to them. I was also out-numbered. Well, no need
for the lines, I was paid up! I ran for the front carefully avoiding
looking like prey until I had the realization I had no idea where the
door was. I couldn't find it. The whole front of the store which at
one time had windows was now solid kiosks that felt like hungry
ghosts reaching out for me and I was trapped. Finally I sort of
flattened against a wall and watched the flow of people. Experience
said they were either headed for food or the exit. I picked the
largest group and followed. Once through that door, I knew why
prisoners describe their first breath of air outside the prison as
being physically sweet. It was. I walked around the store to my van
feeling like I had escaped death. The air was sweet and the whole
world was beautiful. Let's face it, the W's parking lot is nothing to
write home about but that night, it was beautiful. I have never been
back. I don't care what they have, I can do without it. I am living
the authentic life and I am not a fresh energetic steak for a pack of
people so drained they are energetic cannibals.
